the night

why is it that when somebody doesn't answer our call the first time we think that they are having so much fun, enjoying life so much that they cant bother to answer our call. maybe its not like that.. maybe they feel so lonely, so empty that they cant answer. because answering only means to face the questions, the dreadful questions.
 - oh why?

do you ever feel lonely when the night comes. When the day comes to an end and the dark replaces the brightness of the day, do you ever feel lonely? do you ever feel like life is empty of meaning and purpose. this night is exactly the same as the other nights. The moon is shining, the stars are bright. but there is something about this night. it feels like you are the only person in the world. do you ever feel like that? like the sun left with all your hopes and dreams, and here you are now, naked, cold and scared.

this night i feel like that. like my life is so empty that there is no meaning to all of this.  i feel lonely, not alone, lonely.  its worse.
And i felt like writing today